The Scene

Everything that could go wrong this year has gone wrong.

He would not have said it that way six months ago — he is not a catastrophizer, not prone to drama, not the kind of person who treats difficulty as a narrative about himself. But if he is honest, sitting in his car in the hospital parking garage on a Thursday afternoon after the second appointment this month that did not go the way anyone hoped, that is the most accurate sentence he has available: everything that could go wrong this year has gone wrong.

The diagnosis in February. His mother's decline that accelerated in March. The business partnership that unraveled in April, taking with it three years of work and a friendship he thought was more durable than that. His youngest struggling in ways that do not have a clean solution. Each thing individually would have been hard. The accumulation of them has produced something he does not have a word for — not despair, not faithlessness, but a kind of weight that has settled into the background of every day and does not fully lift.

He believes God is good. He believes it the way a person believes something they have staked their life on and are not walking back. But sitting in the parking garage on a Thursday afternoon, he cannot feel it. He can hold it as a proposition. He cannot feel it as a presence.

He is not sure, at this moment, if that is enough.


Scripture

Romans 8:38-39

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

The Teaching

Paul does not say the love of God is strong. He does not say it is resilient or that it endures or that it will probably hold. He lists every category of thing that might challenge it — death, life, angels, demons, present circumstances, future fears, powers above, powers below, anything in all creation — and rules them all out. Not one by one as they arise. All at once, in advance, comprehensively.

The word translated convince at the opening — peithō — means to be persuaded by evidence. Paul is not expressing a hope or a sentiment. He is stating a conclusion he has arrived at through the accumulated evidence of a life that has been through enough to test the proposition. He was beaten in Philippi and chained in the inner cell with his feet in stocks — and at midnight he sang. Not because the circumstances had improved. Because he had already concluded, from evidence, that the love of God does not enter the cell and then leave when the door closes. It is already in the cell. It was there before he arrived.

Nor anything else in all creation — the list is not exhaustive by accident. Paul closes every possible loophole. If you have thought of something that might separate you from the love of God — a sin too large, a failure too complete, a season too dark, a year in which everything that could go wrong has gone wrong — it falls under anything else in all creation. And Paul has already ruled it out.

The love holds not because nothing comes against it. Things come against it. The love holds because nothing that comes against it can succeed.


The Way Before You

You cannot feel it today. You can hold it as a proposition but you cannot feel it as a presence. That gap — between what you believe and what you can feel — is real and it is not a sign that something has broken in your faith. It is a sign that you are in the cell.

Paul did not feel his way to the midnight song. He sang because he had already concluded, from evidence accumulated before the cell, that the love of God does not depend on the feeling to be present. It was present in the cell before he got there. It is present in the parking garage. It is present in every appointment that does not go the way anyone hoped and every friendship that does not survive what you thought it could and every accumulation of hard things that settles into the background of every day.

Neither the present nor the future. The present — what this year has handed you. The future — what you cannot yet see coming. Neither of them can reach the love of God that is in Christ Jesus your Lord. They can reach your circumstances. They can reach your feelings. They cannot reach the verdict.

Holding it as a proposition is enough for today. The feeling will follow. It always does. But the proposition holds even when the feeling does not, and the proposition is what the parking garage needs right now.

You are not separated. The love is already there.


Reflection

What is the thing this year that has made you feel most distant from God — and what would it mean to let Romans 8:38-39 rule it out, specifically, as something that can separate you from his love?


Prayer

Lord, I cannot feel you today and I am not going to pretend otherwise. But I am convinced \u2014 by evidence, not by feeling \u2014 that you are here. In the cell. In the parking garage. In the second appointment that did not go the way anyone hoped. Nothing in this year is on Paul's list of things that can separate me from your love. I am holding the proposition today. The feeling will come. I pray this in Jesus' name. Amen.

Walking in The Way — Today's Step ⭐

Today I will: Name the specific thing this year that has felt most separating — and declare Romans 8:38-39 over it out loud as the verdict that rules it out.

I will watch for: The moment I mistake the absence of feeling for the absence of God — and return to the proposition that holds regardless.


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